Oh my sleeping patterns. I was actually doing really well, until today. I was informed that I needed to take 2 days off of work which at first sounded exciting but then when waking up Wednesday morning to start the day, thoughts started flooding my mind. Thoughts of … what am I doing with my life? … where should I be this very moment? … why is it so hard for me to figure something out? …
After making myself a good breakfast, doing another round of dishes and going on a run through the local cemetery - I came back home and realized how completely bored I am with my life right now.
Don’t get me wrong, the people, the neighborhood, the local business are all fantastic. Even some people I have met the last couple of years have been great too, but there is something missing. Adventure? Cable TV? A car? Not 100% sure.
Today I wanted to jump out of my skin, which has been a first in a long time. I am usually really good finding things to do so boredom can’t creep in but today it smacked me in the face. I ended up finding ‘some things’ to do, but it didn’t satisfy me. I hope that I seriously take a breather and realize that it’s okay to be bored sometimes and I should probably grasp this opportunity to just be. I do have a busy month ahead of me, so I will probably be eating my words later. Life is good and you don’t need to be multi-tasking or doing something every second to realize it.